toby

Toby

My babies name was Toby, he was a black and Tan pure bred Kelpie. He passed at 10.47am yesterday morning, Tuesday 3rd of May, 2011. Age 4 and a half.

I adopted him from a farmer in canberra when he was six weeks old, and weighed only 1.2kgs. He was a constant companion and friend from that day until the moment he died in my arms.

Our general location is Crookwell NSW.

He was a much loved brother to Diesel and Joe, and much loved by myself and my baby son. He was always such a happy dog, even when he was in the deepest of pain, he still had a tail wag for his friends and loved a snuggle. Toby was set free so that he did not have to suffer any more.

He was a very healthy and active dog until the day he wasn’t.

Tragically he was born with a degenerative disease that we didn’t know about until he was suffering from the effects of a squashed spinal cord and there was nothing that could be done for him. We tried very medication they had, in an attempt to alleviate his pain, one caused him severe vomiting, making his condition worse, while another left him comatose.

I am struggling to cope with my decision, but I know that setting him free and ending his pain was the only thing to do, even though it meant the physical loss of my best friend.

My darling Toby,
You came into my life when I needed you most, and gave me 4 of the best years of my life.
You were my constant companion, my best friend, and someone I could always rely on.
I know That I held onto you for longer than I should have, by trying to find ways to stop the pain for you.
At the time I thought It was what you wanted, but I realise It was more because I was not ready to lose you.
Now that I have lost you, I am still not ready to let you go.
Words cannot express how thankful I am to have had you in my life, even though it was for such a short time.
I’m sorry that you were in pain and there was nothing we could do.
I wish things could have turned out differently, and you would still be here sitting patiently beside me, waiting for a pat on the head, but that would not have been fair to you.
I know that you are happy now, running again, free from pain, no more limp, no more medication.
I just wish you were here with me.
I miss you deeply Toby and will always Love you.
“go get em Toby” It wont hurt this time.

toby